Runner’s Legs

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I have runner’s legs
Probably because I’ve been running all my life

I fairly sprinted from childhood to teenager

I ran the four minute mile to teenage wife and mother

I jogged along to abused spouse

I double timed it through a divorce and remarriage

The I ran a house and five kids

And I ran, and I ran and I ran

Next I bounded into another divorce and hurdled a few bad relationships
Taking off in first place but finishing dead last

I rushed headlong into middle age and started backpedaling furiously

Yes I have runner’s legs, but man they’re getting tired!

Published in: on January 10, 2009 at 3:49 pm Leave a Comment

Orlings Are Angels

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A good friend and I recently discovered, through a metaphysical process known as automatic writing, that there are beings on the ethereal plane not unlike what we humans refer to as Guardian Angels, however, they refer to themselves as Orlings.

They do what Guardian Angels are supposed to do, which is watch over us, guide us and help us along life’s way. Unfortunately they too have limitations. 

For Instance, there are certain questions that they aren’t allowed to answer. This may irritate some people, but if you realize that the mysteries of life, and the future, contribute immensely to our enjoyment, then you may understand and accept these limitations. A truly understanding person, who really gets it, will actually rejoice in this fact. Wouldn’t life be boring if we knew it all ahead of time?

Just to know that these beings exist, and will do whatever they can to help those who want help, is amazing to me.

Not only would I never try to take advantage of the knowledge an Orling possesses, I would guard that knowledge, even from myself, as something that cannot be freely given, something to be respected and cherished. 

These beings, to the best of my understanding, are there to help and protect us, which is a very challenging job, taking much talent and determination, as sometimes, lots of times actually, they not only have to protect us from outside influences, but also from ourselves.

Of course they can’t accomplish this Herculean task without our help. We have to become accepting of the help offered and have faith in the outcome. Herein lies the rub. The outcome isn’t always what we think it should be. That’s where the leap of faith begins. We have to believe that they have our best interests at heart. If we become true believers, and ask for help and guidance, then almost anything is possible. I say almost, because like it or not, we are still human.

That little nudge, or niggling feeling we get, that we usually think is our own conscience, that’s the Orling whispering in our ear. Too many people don’t listen, and that’s when the Orling’s job becomes much harder.

All of a sudden you’ve taken the wrong path, not listening to that little voice, and everything changes. The Orling now has to look at this new situation and find a way to help you through it. Can you see how this can become very exasperating at times?

Look at it this way, a simile if you will: We have a parent trying to distract a child from doing something that might cause them harm, yet the child keeps going back to the harmful thing no matter what, until, sure enough, crying and wailing ensue.

Now take the positive aspects of the Orling and put then in the same context. 

Here’s the parent trying to show the child a different way to approach something that will be more beneficial to them, yet the child keeps wandering off to look at the television, paying no attention whatsoever to the caring parent who is trying to help.

Frustrating, isn’t it?

Are you getting some much deserved feelings of respect for the Orlings yet? You should be, for most of the time they are dealing with what we like to call adults, or grown-ups, but still they keep having to compete with the TV.

Thank the cosmos that these beings have patience. Though it isn’t infinite. As much as we’d like to believe that an Orling or Guardian Angel would have all the patience in the world, sorry, but it just isn’t so.

Just as the parent who’s child keeps wandering back to the television, so too, after many such battles, the Orling must see the futility of trying to help some people. 

I’m not saying they ever truly give up, don’t get me wrong, but their efforts are probably not quite as robust after, say, twenty or thirty years of trying.

So I guess what this is truly about is faith, true faith in yourself, for without that the Orling’s job is pretty much null and void. If you believe you can accomplish something you can, your Orling will help, just listen.

So the moral of this story is: Listen to that little voice, the nuances of your conscience, and help the Orlings to help you!

Published in: on December 22, 2008 at 11:26 am Comments (2)
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Bah Humbugs

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Wow everyone dropped me like a hot rock once I posted my diatribe against Second Life. I guess I offended a few of you huh. Oh well, hope you all have a Merry Virtual Xmas anyway. Have some of that spiked virtual egg nog for me ‘kay.

Ta luvs

Published in: on December 21, 2008 at 5:40 pm Leave a Comment
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My Awesome Soldier

 

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The following was written by me for a young man in the first Gulf War. We corresponded for about one year and it was heartwarming and wonderful. He thankfully came home in one piece and we lost touch awhile later. I miss you John and hope you’re doing well.

My Awesome Soldier

My Awesome Soldier
So Young, so brave, so optimistic

You faced death
Yet remained so full of life

I was here
Safe from danger
Yet so scared

Imagine that
I needed you 
To help me through

Every letter made my day
Too few came

I kept you sane?
You’ll never know what you did for me!

My days are brighter
My life is richer 
For knowing you

Published in: on December 19, 2008 at 9:47 am Leave a Comment
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There Will Always Be Controversy

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Listening to C Span this morning about Bill Clinton releasing his contributor list, I realized that you could have all the saints and angels on your list but the one bad guy would stand out, sort of like the fallen angel who was Lucifer.

Why is Bill Clinton’s list of contributors so important to his wife’s career as Secretary of State? They are not one person. They are seperate beings, and she has shown a strong face to this country. 

Although I did not vote for her in the primaries, I do believe a woman SoS will be a great thing for our nation.

Women tend to have a different outlook than men when it comes to certain delicate areas, and I think the choice was wise and sound. 

To say one more thing in defense of Bill Clinton, our country was doing well while he was in office. I would take the Clinton days over the past eight years anytime.

He’s not perfect, neither am I, neither are you, although I’m sure there are some out there that will read this sentence and become enraged by it. Get over it, no one is perfect, that’s the human condition, imperfection. Deal with it and move on or live a miserable life trying to attain the perfection you will never see.

Give Hilary a chance, if she screws up then start throwing shoes at her.

How About Living Your First Life

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Last night I watched a special on the ridiculously popular online world called ‘Second Life”. I was in utter amazement of this whole concept, and not amazement in a good way, but amazement in the “what the f*@+” kind of way!

Do any of these fools realize the amount of money they’re spending on NOTHING!!! Virtual things are nothing, not tangible in any way shape or form. You people do realize that there’s a REAL world out there, just beyond your mousepad: real people, things, places, clothes, stuff of every kind.

There was one woman who said she spent 14 to 16 hours every day in ‘Second Life’. Granted ahe makes a lot of money in her virtual store, but when does she spend it. She has no REAL life. I can’t even get my head around that. Let alone the fact that these people actually spend real money in this virtual world. Lots os it. They even spend it on sex toys and body modification. 

Then when I ever heard that the big conglomerates were buying virtual buildings and advertising in this make-believe world, well, at that point I just sat there with my mouth agape and my eyes wide in sheer disbelief and horror.

Does this make any sense to anyone who has any sense?

There are people homeless and starving, right here in our own country, and there are 6500 computers running  ’Second Life’ from their home base in San Francisco, CA.

WHY?

I need some real people to talk to about this because I think it may cause me to have a nervous breakdown. I think I need counseling. Maybe I’m the crazy one. Should I join ‘Second Life’ and leave my real family, friends and loved ones to wonder what became of me?

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

It is a sad day, a terrible day for the world when people, real people, have to go to a virtual world for 14 to 16 hours a day, every day, to avoid life. It’s worse than drugs.

Someone out there please try and help me understand this lunacy, before I go stark raving mad!!!!

Oh Ye Lovers of The Bush

spiders-in-my-soupLook around all you Bible thumpin, good ‘ole country boys (and girls), right wing circle flyers, look around you. How do you like this economy, huh? How’s it treating you? You got us into this mess, not once, but twice. I hope you’re all really happy with the way it turned out. Is it hitting you all that putting ‘monkey boy’ in office wasn’t such a good idea? I hope it’s hitting you hard, giving you all nightmares, because that’s what you deserve. It was hard to forgive the first time around, but the second, no forgiveness there, as your president says, “Fool me once, ahhh, ahhh fool me twice, ahhhh, won’t git fooled again”. But you were fooled, or just plain stupid and pigheaded, and now everyone in the country has to pay the price, a high one, for your selfishness, blind sightedness and downright stupidity. Thanks folks, thanks so much for fucking us all over, really appreciate it.
I feel sorry for Obama as he has to come in and try to clean up the huge mess that your votes created. I really hope you don’t blame him for what has gone on in the past eight years, that would definitely be the final push into HELL for all of you. Admit your mistakes and give this new guy the credit he deserves for taking on the hardest job on the planet right now. Help him by being good people, caring for others and the planet, and doing whatever is needed to get this country back on it’s feet. It’s the very least you can do after the biggest fuck-over in history.
Take this chance, all you voters for Bush, take it and run with it, or you will go to the HELL you all think exists.

Published in: on December 14, 2008 at 3:15 pm Leave a Comment
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Racism is for the weak minded

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OK so I haven’t been here for awhile, but when I read things like I read tonight on Yahoo it makes my blood boil and I can’ be quiet about it.

Race crimes and hate crimes because we elected a black man for president. 

Didn’t Lincoln free the slaves? Oh yeah and he got killed for it.

Didn’t Martin Luther King have a dream? Oh yeah and he got killed for it.

Didn’t Jesus love everyone and want a peaceful world? Oh yeah and he got killed for it.

For that matter aren’t all these N-word hatin’ fuckers supposed to be Christians?

Do any of you even know what the word Christian means? Well for those of you who have decided that because Barak Obama is going to be our next president it’s OK to start hanging black dummies from trees and betting on his date of assassination and burning down churches, here’s a big ‘ole news flash for y’all, it means to be Christ-like.

Do you think Christ would have condoned these things, because if you do you’d best go find yourselves the right Bible, cause yours must be a misprint.

And here’s a real shocker for all y’all, Christ was a dark skinned middle easterner. OH noooooooooooooooo!!!

Yeah, all these wonderful pictures you see of Jesus with light skin and blue eyes, sorry folks, that’s the Americanized version of the Big Guy. He came from the middle east. which means he was dark skinned, dark eyed and yeah he looked a lot more like most of these people they’ve been calling terrorists for the past few years.

Oh I know right about now there’s a whole bunch of redneck hillbillies that are just wanting to kick my ass. Especially the parents of the kid on the bus in Georgia who told his 9 year old female schoolmate that he wishes Obama would get assassinated. Hmmmmm where did he hear that from? Maw and Paw most likely.

And as for you Mainers who are taking bets on the date Obama dies, all I can say is I hope Jesus is listening, cause he doesn’t like that kind of talk coming from people who say they believe in him.

Pull your stupid heads out of your fat asses and cop on. Obviously the old white men that have been running this country haven’t done a whole lot for any of us. How’s your pension doing these days, or are you all to dumb to even realize what’s happening. 

Our country isn’t the world’s superpower anymore, and guess why? Bush and his white friends all had a bunch of good ‘ole times with our money and our reputation as a Nation. Oh and Russia’s getting pretty cocky too all of a sudden cause pssst…they got China on their side.

Obama may be black but at least he’s not in the pocket of big oil, or the pharmaceutical companies, or any other corporation. 

Get a fucking clue and try to see him as a man of integrity who is willing to take over the tremendous responsibility of trying to pull this country out of a tailspin. Personally I don’t even know why he wants the damned job. I wouldn’t. Not after the mess the old, white men have made of it. 

I pray for him and wish him all the good luck in the universe. I cried tears of joy the night he won. 

Oh yeah, one more little thing before I leave you wallowing in your stupidity, if you believe in the teachings of the Bible then you should know we are all descended from one man, Adam. That makes Barak Obama our brother, and I for one embrace him and send him all the positive energy and good wishes I can.

Via Con Dios Barak…and for you illiterate haters out there that means “Go with God”!

Abstract Lament

ABSTRACT LAMENT

 

Choice shunned here

From chair    From room   From stuffed justice

Silky doubt lives 

Delicious without the eagle eye

Sitting in un-comfort giving-desire

Where Do You Even Start

There is so much going on in politics but I guess the economy is the biggest thing right now on everyone’s mind. What’s going to happen? Who the hell knows. It’s a wait and see game at the moment. Personally, when I listen to all the pundits talking it just seems that they’re all basically saying the same thing, which is essentially nothing. They’re all just giving educated opinions. I’ve heard twenty-two different scenarios as far as this ecomonic bailout goes. No one really knows. It’s never been done before. It would be great if we were all clued in as to exactly how this thing is supposed to work, but we’re not. We have to ‘trust’ our government officials…wow, sorry but my trust meter doesn’t register in the government zone anymore. As a matter of fact they’re not even on the meter. My lack of trust in this current administration is comparable to me handing Freddie Krueger a knife and asking him to cut my steak for me. 

I really think we’ve reached a new era in this country where things are never going to be the same. My only hope is that we move forward instead of falling into the yawning pit that’s directly in front of us. We need to build a bridge that’s going to take awhile, but it can be done. Things have got to change drastically and not everyone will come out a winner, but I don’t think it’s about that anymore, it’s about survival for now and moving on as soon as possible. On to where, well that remains to be seen. Hopefully to a brighter tomorrow, where we get back on track and establish a foreign policy that makes us more friends and less enemies. That’s going to be a hard task, but again I believe it can be done. We need to unravel all the threads of collusion and corruption, find out which lead where and how we can make them go from point A to point B in a straighter line. It’s a huge job, and one I don’t envy anyone having to do, but it needs to be done. At least a start has to be made. No more of this we’ll support you and help you with weapons and money util you piss us off, then we’ll demonize you and say we never had anything to do with you. That’s got to be put to rest. Don’t give them weapons and then get mad when they use them against us and others. What did you think they were going to do with them, start a collection? Don’t fund these governments that are killing thier own people. I could go on and on but there’s no point. There are major things wrong with the world and they all need to be fixed, like I said this is a chance to start over. Let’s do things right this time cause I think it’s probably our last chance.